His Divine Grace Om Vishnupad
I do not know any other conception, but my conception is very easy—everybody can understand this philosophy. If you have any questions for me, you can ask, but there are some devotees who know the history better than me. I mostly heard what I know from Gurudev only, and there are some who have also seen it with their own eyes. Adhoksaja Prabhu is here, he probably knows it; Srila Ashram Maharaj is here, he knows it; but it is actually very easy to understand.
When I just joined the temple, I was a young brahmachari and did not know the conception so well. At that time, there were some people in the temple who criticised Gurudev. I remembered Ramachandra Puri and Ishwar Puri at that time:
Ramachandra Puri criticised Mahaprabhu, and many devotees asked Mahaprabhu, "Prabhu, he criticises You, but You give him a higher position—why?" Mahaprabhu did not say anything. Later, when asked another time, Mahaprabhu said, "You do not know? He can say whatever he wants, but he is My 'uncle guru' (he is my Gurudev's godbrother), that is why I must give him honour and respect." This was Mahaprabhu's vision, but the devotees did not give respect to Ramachandra Puri.
So, one time (when I was a young brahmachari) I asked Gurudev,
"Gurudev, this devotee is criticising you, how can I tolerate it? I am your disciple..."
"Where do you want to stay—at Radharani's kunja or Chandravali's kunja?" Gurudev asked me in reply.
"I want to stay at Radharani's kunja," I replied.
That is all Gurudev said, nothing else.
Then, last year, during the kartik time, I was in the car, going to Nabadwip or perhaps Krishnanagar because it was the date for me to go to the court (*** had put a case against me because they wanted to take rice from the rice fields; so much problem was going on at that time). Suddenly, ** Maharaj called me,
"Dandavat, Maharaj, how are you? I heard you are in Vrindavan," I said.
"Yes, I am in Vrindavan. Can I tell you something?" he asked me.
"Yes, what is the problem? You can tell me."
"** and ** are my godbrothers—"
"Yes, I know it."
"...if they want to come back, if they want to serve the Mission, what is the problem for you?"
"Yes, it is a problem for me," I said, "because they are dead against my Guru, they are always envious of my Guru, then how shall I see their faces every day? How shall I stay in Nabadwip with them?"
"No, but then all problems would be solved quickly..."
"No, Maharaj. If I die, I die—one day I have to die anyway—but I cannot compromise with them. Yes, if somebody is my godbrother and they are against me, that is not a problem, I can tolerate it, but if somebody is against my Guru and left the temple twenty-five years ago, how shall I compromise with them? This is an offence! Is it for my own interest that I want a temple, or a house, a room? Have I come to this line for this? Have I taken sannyas, have I come to Krishna consciousness for some building, for a room, or for four-five buildings—for that?! No, I did not come for that. Even if I live in the street, I have no problem; even if I live under a banyan tree, it is not a problem, but I cannot compromise with them."
After that he did not call me again...
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