My Hope

His Divine Grace Om Vishnupad
Srila Bhakti Nirmal Acharya Maharaj
Sri Nrisingha Palli, Gaura Purnima Day
21 March 2019, part 2


We should understand that in Srila Sridhar Maharaj's time the accommodation was also not so good and not so much, but Gurudev arranged for so much accommodation for the devotees, and we too will try to make more accommodation in future. Ultimately, we have hope that we will get accommodation in other places as well and we will solve this problem. Anyhow, Krishna is with us, Chaitanya Mahaprabhu, Srila Saraswati Thakur are with us—devotees' mercy, sannyasis' mercy, everyone's mercy is with us, so this gives us even more happiness.

When all the devotees are with us, when all the devotees' mercy is with us, we have no worry. Gurudev says: when a door closes, another door will open. When Srila Sridhar Dev-Goswami Maharaj handed the charge over to Gurudev, there were also problems, but not as big as the problem there is now—some little problem came and one way or another it was solved by the mercy of Srila Guru Maharaj. This problem too will be solved by the mercy of Gurudev. Actually, I do not think that this is a problem. I hope that this situation will finish quickly. I promise to all of you that as long as I am alive I will not run away.

When Gurudev made his declaration of succession on the day of his Vyasa Puja and appointed me the acharya of Sri Chaitanya Saraswat Math, I was on my way to Australia at that time (I was supposed to stop in Malaysia for a few hours and then go to Australia). After that, he got a letter letter from some big devotees, some conspirators, and he was very shocked. As soon as he got it, he called me and told me to shorten my programme in Australia and leaving Srila Ashram Maharaj there, to come quickly back. I immediately made some arrangements for protection of Gurudev and came back within seven days. I went directly to Nabadwip from the airport and went straight to the room of Gurudev. He was lying on his bed and called me to come near—when I came up to him, he caught my hand and gave me the letter. He asked me, "It is very painful for me. What do you think you will do? Will you solve this problem? I told a little bit about my desire in the declaration, but tell me, you will have to face so many problems, will you run away from it?" I replied, "I will not run away, Gurudev. I will face all problems, but I will not run away from the devotees."

I have never actually run away—I have never wanted to run away from Sri Chaitanya Saraswat Math, but all the devotees who surrounded me told me, "They will kill you unless you leave at once. What can you do? We cannot protect you. Please, you have to leave immediately." That is why I left that day.

Still, we hope that by Srila Gurudev's mercy, this problem will be solved soon and it will be overcome. All the court cases have almost finished now and we near to returning there. This is our hope. These are the main things.


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