Sanatan-Siksa: "Your Are Mine!"

His Divine Grace Om Vishnupad
Srila Bhakti Nirmal Acharya Maharaj
25 June 2015

[His Divine Grace is reading from Sri Chaitanya-charitamrita, Madhya-lila, chapter 23:]

One time, Sanatan Goswami wanted to commit suicide. Thinking, "Mahaprabhu told me to come to Puri, so I am coming," he came to Puri and stayed in the house of Haridas Thakur—he stayed there because Haridas Thakur is very humble, and Sanatan Goswami is also humble, he was afraid to go to Mahaprabhu, thinking, "I am the lowest person. I have no quality to meet with Mahaprabhu." Also, he did not want to go because he had so much skin disease—he had walked all the way from Vrindavan bare-feet and his whole body, all his legs had some skin disease. So, he thought, "I will commit suicide! When the chariot will be going down the street, I will fall down under it."

When Mahaprabhu came to see him, He wanted to embrace Sanatan Goswami, but Sanatan Goswami backed off, "Prabhu, please, please, please! Prabhu, do not touch me, do not touch me!" Still, Mahaprabhu forcefully embraced him and said, "I told you before I am touching you for My own purification!" When Mahaprabhu embraced him, all his skin disease was removed.

Then Sanatan Goswami said,

"Prabhu, I came here to commit suicide..."

"What?! Do you have no shame? Do you want to kill yourself—want to finish yourself, want to leave your body?! This body is not your property! This body is My property. When you surrendered to Me—when you took initiation from Me—you gave everything to Me. Why do you want now to commit suicide—why do you want to destroy My property?! You have no right to do it! I will use this property of Mine for many things."

And it is written here how:

So many places are hidden now—nobody knows where Radha Kunda is, where Shyama Kunda is, where Krishna's Pastimes are—you must show them to the people and preach where those places are.

"You will start the service to Krishna in Vrindavan and preach to others what the Vaishnav etiquette is, what the Vaishnav's rules and regulations are. This is your duty—I am giving you this service.

"You cannot destroy your body! You cannot destroy it because this body is not your body—it is My body and I will use that for service of the Lord!"

Mahaprabhu told, "You must reject dry vairagya—false renunciation, or deceitful devotion. You must reject all this."

Sanatan Goswami asked Mahaprabhu so many important things, so many sacred things...

Sanatan Goswami says very humbly, "I am from a very low cast, I am very small and do so many things wrong and do very bad things, but You are so merciful—You have given me so many important things that even Brahma does not know about. You have told me about so many things, it is like an ocean of nectar, but my mind is very naughty—I cannot even enter there..."

"I am lame, I have no legs, but You are making an arrangement for me to dance—You want to tell me, 'Dance!' You please give some mercy to me." What mercy is that? "I am putting my head at Your feet and You please put Your feet on it..."

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